I was able to get 7 hours of sleep last night – PTL! I know I’ve mentioned it before in other
posts, but I really prefer to go to bed early and get up early, but when
traveling I must adjust. The part I hate
is that I struggle then in my prayer time if I’m too sleepy – my thoughts are
not clear and my eyes want to close!
Breakfast was granola and yogurt and Earl Grey tea – happy camper.
We got to the ‘clinic’ and set up like yesterday. One of the things very different about this
situation seems like a small thing, but I guess it’s a mental game. Normally, we don’t see the patients waiting
in line – we see them one at a time. But
here, there was no waiting area other than right in front of us, so I was
constantly noting that the line was getting longer and longer. That was hard at times – the times I was
tired and wanted to be through for the day.
And today just seemed chaotic.
Our scale wasn’t working correctly, which isn’t a big deal for adults,
but is very important for the children.
All of the antibiotics are weight based, so it was important to be
accurate. While the other clinic was
open they let us use their scale, but this just added to the confusion to walk
patients over there and back while new patients were arriving. Men’s hearts are the same everywhere when it
comes to the ‘me first’ mentality, and this was no exception. It was hard to keep everyone in the order in
which they came.
Bradley had to go out and find more of a certain antibiotic
because we were seeing so many patients with impetigo, and we had used up our
stock of that medicine. A lot of the
kids had Chinese powders applied to these infections – I guess a contribution
from the local Chinese herb doctor. Again,
I was seeing more children with junky sounding lungs, even after breathing
treatments. All I could think of was how
these kids would be treated if they were in an ER in the States, and there was
no way we could do that for these kids.
These parents couldn’t afford radiology and blood studies, let alone
inpatient care with IV antibiotics, nor did we have the capacity to provide these
services. The effect on me was
cumulative, and the case that pushed me over the edge was a little two-year-old
boy with boils all over his head and trunk. One of the boils on his head needed
incised and drained, but while holding his head for the doc to do this, my
hands caused others of them to rupture and there was purulent drainage coming
from each of them. The little guy was
wailing and my stomach was churning; not from the drainage but from his pitiful
condition. Yes, we could give
antibiotics for the boils but he obviously needed proper nutrition and hygiene
as well. I had to excuse myself at this
point to have a good cry. It took me a
few minutes to regain my composure and start again. We finished around 4:30, but because there
is no way to secure the supplies we had to set up and tear down each day, so we
didn’t get back to the hotel until around 6 pm.
While the pharmacy was finishing filling scripts I visited the school
next door. They were having what seemed
to be a marching band practice – hard to imagine the need of a marching band in
this area, but they sounded good. I met
a teacher and brought him over to see the clinic. Pastor Willis witnessed to him, but he didn’t
get saved. He did, however, hear the
gospel and take a tract. PTL for some
watering and sowing!
When we got back to the hotel I took a shower and chose to
skip dinner. Instead I spent some time
with the Lord, trying to get the right perspective on things. Again, I am being rather transparent, but
most of my life I’ve had the idea that I had to be strong and handle whatever
came my way without asking for help, and that I had to do everything perfectly. It’s truly just been this year that I
realized two things: 1) that the Lord never intended for me to handle life alone
– He wants me to lean on Him, and 2) He never expected perfection of me – I can
never be perfect while in this mortal body.
After crying and praying for these kids and my weakness, I was comforted
by the reminder that I don’t have to know everything, I don’t have to take care
of everyone, and I certainly don’t have to bear all of the needs of these people on my shoulders - only the Lord can do that. I went to bed early, which I knew would help
me, too. One of my teachers from college
used to say, “Sometimes the most spiritual thing we can do is go to bed!” Amen to that!
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